I can't sleep

it is 4:30 am. i have been awake for over an hour. mic woke me up. she wanted to get in our bed. brent told her to go back to her bed. she cried the heartbroken cry. she said we always let nat get in bed with us. this is entirely untrue. we always send her back. mic needs some one on one time. yesterday we had mic's birthday party. i am so glad it is done. finally, next weekend i have nothing looming up ahead of me. we had the party at roman's pizza (the pizza place that deb took over). she came in early just to do the party. brent did this game with the kids where they roll a giant die to decide what toppings go on the pizza. this meant that every pizza ended up having italian sausage on it. we got way too much pizza. on the bright side i don't have to cook this weekend. i just never feel like cooking on a saturday. i hate it when i can't sleep. why can't i? i just lie there thinking about visiting teaching. who knew there was so many people with such strong feelings about it? and i tried not to ruffle any feathers--just change what wasn't working. i've had people calling me and telling me i made a mistake and to change it back. problem is, that it is a process getting any changes made. it means at least 1 meeting and 2 appointments to get it done. and then there is the domino effect to deal with as well. and that is the part that is playing in my mind when all i want to do is sleep--how to adjust things. well, i know that is not that interesting to read about, but maybe if i write it out, it will stay out of my head long enough for me to sleep. i have to be at the church at 10:20 today. this means that i have to have the girls semi presentable before i leave. brent is just not reliable at this. which means that i really have little sleep in time. i'm a little nervous about my meetings today. last time i felt singled out and put on the spot. geri is coming with me to stand up for me though. haha. she won't let the bishop do that to me again. ok. this is boring and disjointed as all the thoughts whirling around in my head. i'm going to see if i can sleep now.