katie-lou-hoo

ugh. i couldn't sleep last night. it is such an annoyance. lying there knowing that you have to be up in a couple hours and not able to shut your mind off. i got up and sent off some emails about some of the thoughts that were plaguing me in hopes that it would help, but of course it didn't. so i'm sitting here in the aftermath of mother's day in a sluggish stupor. i don't feel like getting something to eat--i just don't want to bother even washing some grapes off. my house looks as if a stampede went through it. brent and mic did do some dishes yesterday but he just isn't that efficient at loading the dishwasher and he only washed one dish by hand and someone put the dirty icecream scoop on it. the table is still extended. and exactly why was it extended in the first place? for no good reason--only 3 people ate at it. there are half eaten plates on the table, glasses in the living room, no counter space in the kitchen, a bunch of crap in the laundry room (because that is how brent cleans up) and a really stinky diaper in the garbage. mother's day was...hectic. the girls were really excited but when that happens they just seem to get into more trouble. they were fighting and crying and throwing temper tantrums about ridiculous things like who gets to use the bathroom first. we were halfway through the day before they were finally able to give me their gifts. here are some of the things mic said about me in her brochure she made at school: "my mom loves to go to grandmas, she likes to go on runs. my mom is great at jogging and cooking also singing. i'd like to give my mom a hug, a great house, the new harry potter book, some chocolate bars and lillies. a future event for my mom and i will be to go out for dinner, watch a movie and go out for ice cream." haha. well at least she doesn't think i like to sew anymore. that part was very sweet. so was natalie saying over and over throughout the day Hap-py mother's day!! sarah and kyle and anne came over for dinner. adriel was uncharacteristically fussy and anne kept saying mic was a chubby baby and that jane was much skinnier and that mic had such chubby cheeks and for some reason that really pushed my buttons. and sarah would agree and say that mic was small that's all and that she wasn't skinny and for some reason it really bugged me and anne kept saying it. and then she would try to make me feel better by saying that she was still cute even though she was chubby and started saying that she considered adriel to be slim and mic was like him. and i think i might have offended sarah because i said there was no comparison and between the two but its not like i think one is better than the other. and the whole conversation was just ridiculous because i know the way mic was and her size and weight is really completely irrelevant but i couldn't stop it because for some reason. all this time nat was climbing around me and jumping and not listening and kyle was playing kenneth cope. after dinner i told brent that it was tradition to go to pipers on mothers day. neither kyle nor he wanted to go...as if it was up to them...but i persisted and told brent that if we didn't go that i was going to go up to my room and stay there by myself because i am highly sensitive and couldn't take it anymore. so we went and for once the mother's won one on mother's day. we took a few pics and then the girls insisted we play tag. kyle ran while holding adriel over his shoulder and gave us a good laugh. for some reason i always have so much fun playing tag with the girls. they are so cute chanting na-na-na-na-bu-bu and then running away with a delighted shriek. we stayed there long enough for the girls to get some of their pent up energy out and my nerves to relax. then we came home and watched the survivor finale. and then i couldn't sleep...